I say to the LORD, “You are my God.” Hear, LORD, my cry for mercy. Sovereign LORD, my strong deliverer, you shield my head in the day of battle. Do not grant the wicked their desires, LORD;  do not let their plans succeed. 

-Psalm 140:6-8

My heart aches as i call onto the Lord for His forgiveness, i've neglected his love and i've ignored his whispers.  My heart is so distracted, my mind so consumed in worldly thoughts.  Why must i be this weak human that cannot be loyal to anything, why must i constantly let down the ones i love most.  

The first thing that comes to mind is to run, i'm oh so good at that.  Running away from my problems and pretending they dont exist is what i do best.  But my savior whispers to me, "Take heart, i am with you".  He lives inside of me, His spirit is not one that runs, but that stands firm and fights.  My soul must be cleaned and my heart must be weeded.  I miss my Savior and his wonderful spirit, it is my fault for this distance, just like every other thing that has been going wrong, it is my fault.  Grace surrounds me, and i realize how lucky i am to have a Savior that picks me up off the dirty ground and looks at me and tells me i have so much worth.  I want to cling to Him, i want to run into this arms and remain there for the rest of my life.  This world is hard, but my Lord has overcome the world.  

"take heart, i am with you" 

I will listen to my Savior, for his promises are all i have to hold onto.