My Beloved-Kari Jobe

You're My Beloved

You're My Bride

To sing over you is My delight

Come away with Me My love

You're Beautiful to Me

So beautiful to Me

Under My mercy

Come and wait

Till we are standing face to face

I see no stain on you

My child

You're Beautiful to Me 

So Beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace

Cast all your cares down at My feet

Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you

I'll bear you up on eagle's wings

And hide you in the shadow of My strength

I'll take you to My quiet waters

I'll restore your soul

Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved

You're My Bride

To sing over you is my delight

Come away with me my love

No expectation.

TIJUANA, MEXICO

On Sunday, June 26 i will be leaving for Tijuana, Mexico.  It's only for a week, but i have a feeling this week is going to break me down and build me back up again. For the past 7 years my youth group goes on this week long trip with Spectrum Ministries.  For 7 years God has provided $20,000+, every stinking year.  This year to raise the money we did service projects for our church community.  Basically we raked yards, pulled weeds, and did anything else these wonderful people told us to do.  It's impossible to raise $24,000 doing yard work, but yet again God pulls through and provides for this trip that he is so in love with.  

This will be my first mission trip ever, to say i'm excited is far beyond and understatement.  We will be building two houses, visiting two orphanages, having a bath day for the local kids, and going to the dumps where some families live.  I'm trying my hardest not to go into this with expectations because i know God will shatter them.  I'm bracing my heart for the hurt its going to endure and i'm just leaning on my Savior through this because i know its going to rock my comfort zone.  My heart will be changed and my eyes will be forced open.  Everything i think i know i'm sure will be completely out the window.  

So, this is what i would like all of you to do. Pray for me and my team.  Pray for our hearts, pray that God moves and runs through this place.  Pray, pray, pray.  The power of prayer is so strong and we so would appreciate it.  I'm so ready to serve, i'm so ready to be changed for the Kingom, i'm so ready to Jesus. 

It turns out that my dads heart wasn't the one that needed changing, it was mine.  

As i sit here, eating my humble pie, i smile, i have to, because how could i have thought i knew the Lords plan for me?  Even though New Tribes was a Godly desire, it was still of myself, and when i didnt let go, Jesus made me let go.  If you can not already tell, i will not be attending New Tribes Bible institute this fall.  I will be attending Kellogg Community College. (That was not what i was expecting to tell people at my open house.)
I had a good conversation with my both of my parents, in the same room, and i realized i was being stubborn.  I know Jesus was chuckling at me this whole time, just waiting for me to understand, to trust him.  I had to let go of a very big desire of my heart, as i cried it out i know Jesus was whispering "trust me".  So, i am.  I'm trusting that KCC is exactly where he wants me.  I'm being placed perfectly to where i'm called.  Even though sometimes i wish i was being called to Africa, i will take this calling and run with it.  I will be excited at what God has to offer and what things i will learn.  I've decided i will continue schooling after KCC at a transfer school God hasnt delivered yet and study teaching, with a minor in biblical studies.  Now, take all of this with a grain of salt because God could change all of this any minute.  So, i hold onto my bible and i lift my eyes to the heavens where i know my help comes from.  I smile at my Savior and i trust.

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart" Psalm 37:4

The thing about this verse is, i think we miss read it.  "Delight yourself in the Lord", when you're so consumed in Jesus, you cant see anything other than Him and his goodness.  "and when you do that, he will give you the desires of your heart." Jesus knows your heart and my heart way better than we ourselves know it.  So when it says he will give us our desires, we dont even know what those desires are.  But He does, and when we are consumed and fulfilled and DELIGHTED in Him, those desires will become clear to us.


Thank you, Jesus for knowing my heart better than i do.  Thank you for keeping your promises, and Thank you for saving me.


I trust you.

I'll be home soon.

“But we are citizens of heaven, where the Lord Jesus Christ lives. And we are eagerly waiting for him to return as our Savior.” 

-Philippians 3:20

When you go on vacation, its exciting.  You're going somewhere new, somewhere unfamiliar to you. You may lay out in the sun or enjoy the snow, depending on where your real home is. This is the definition of vacation;

Vacation: freedom or release from duty, business, or activity. 

Eventually, you get homesick, you miss your parents, your siblings, your significant other, or maybe just your dog, but your heart knows where home is, and it wants to go back. 

I dont necessarily think our time on earth is considered a vacation, its more work than our real home is, but go with me on this one.  We are constantly homesick, constantly longing for our home that we have no recollection of actually being in.  So many times in the bible it talks about how we are strangers on this earth, and Heaven is our home.  It makes sense.  Today, i'm homesick.  Today, i'm craving my Savior.  Today, this world holds none of my attention.   

My heart longs for Jesus, and that is the only longing worth talking about. 

Free me from these worldly routines, Lord.  Sanctify my days and ruin me this life.  I'm yours, and so is my heart.    

When all the world is blossoming
And everything around is bursting into life
And I don't have to strain to hear the beat of Your heart

When all the world is under fire
When skies are threatening to thunder and rain
And I am overcome by fears that I can't see

If everything is Yours
Everything is Yours
If everything is Yours
I'm letting it go
No, it was never mine to hold
No, never mine

Who could command the stars to sing
Or hold the raging seas from breaking through the doors?
And tend the fragile roses with the very same hands

Everything is Yours
If everything is Yours
I'm letting it go
I am, I'm letting it go, letting go
Yeah, I'm letting it go

'Cause everything is Yours
Yeah, everything is Yours

If everything is Yours, God
And everything is Yours
If everything is Yours
I'm letting it go, let it go, let it go, let it go

It was never mine, no, no
It was never mine, never mine
[Incomprehensible] no

When all the world is blossoming
And everything around is bursting into life
And I don't have to strain to hear the beat of Your heart

I have called you back from the ends of the earth,
      saying, ‘You are my servant.’
   For I have chosen you
      and will not throw you away.
 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
      Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
   I will strengthen you and help you.
      I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

-Isaiah 41:9-10

To say this last week has been a trial may be an understatement.  

My dad is completely aware of the desires of my heart to serve and eventually be and overseas missionary.  Does he support it? No.  Does he fully support my relationship with God? No. I take this as a daily struggle, because i know through Christ all things are possible and God is and WILL change my dads heart on that subject, but that is not what i'm writing about today, but it does have something to do with it.  

      New Tribes Bible Institute, if you know me on a personal level you know that this past year this school is all I've been talking about, thinking about, and praying about.  For me, a year is a long time for me to be fully invested in something, halfway through i usually get bored and move on.  The only commitment i'm good at is my commitment to following Gods plan for me, and let me tell you, when he puts a desire in my heart, that desire is burning and its ready.  

      When i want something, i dont stop until i have it. Now, if this something just has to be a God given desire, watch out.  New Tribes is exactly that.  A school completely focused on teaching the bible, oh and its a missionary based school. SIGN ME UP. 

      Now, just because God has given me a desire for this doesnt mean this plan is going to run smoothly, especially if Satan has anything to do about it.  This past week i think my dad and i have argued more than we have in 3 years about this one subject. (Theres another huge thing, you guys dont know my dad, well, some of you might.  When my dad argues, its scary.) When someone attacks your beliefs, you're natural instinct is to respond and tell them that they're wrong. As a teenage girl, do you think i responded that way. Heck yes i did, should i have responded that way? No i stinking shouldnt have. How in the heck am i supposed to show Jesus to my dad when i'm responding in the same way he is, especially if its about something i really want.  

      My dad has referred New Tribes and my aspiration to become a missionary (i use the term "become" lightly because i consider myself a missionary in everyday life but in lack of another term we will stick to this one) in more disrespectful words than not.  The other day he compared me wanting to be a missionary with him wanting to be a baseball player.  Nice, right?

      If my dad had his way this is what my life would look like.  

• Go to community college for 2 years. 
• get associates and bachelors degree. 
• move onto a university and study "a common job", probably nursing. 
• find "a common guy" who may or may not believe in God. 
• move away, but not too far away from Him and have Children.
• but most of all, i will have a secure life a secure husband and financially i will be secure. 

     This life may be good for someone, but not for me.  The last thing i want in the world is to be secure, because when i'm secure in this world, that can only lead to destruction.  I want instability so i may lean on God to even things out.  I want way too much to handle, so im forced to lean on God for help.  I want to be lost, so i have to ask God for directions.  I want to be dangerous to the enemy.  I want my life to look radically different from the average american.  Want to know why? I want to live radically different for CHRIST who lived radically.  I want to be so in love with Jesus Christ that normal things become absurd.  I want to look so different from people, they question my life style.  I want to get to heaven and hear Jesus say "well done my good and faithful servant, you have used everything i have given you." I do not live for the applause from men, but for the applause from my father in heaven.    

       How do you explain that to someone that is of this world?  You cant.  It's impossible for him to understand it.  So, how am i going to do what i think is right according to God?  I dont know, but i have faith that i will know when i am supposed to.  I trust that God has gone before me in this, he knows my future already and he has it worked out.  This nothing but a small pebble in my path.  Jesus will lead me where i'm supposed to be.  He will change my dads heart, or my heart according to his plans. 

I pray that you all are seeking God's will for your life.  I will not promise an easy road, but i will promise a full and joyful life.